Thursday, June 01, 2006
finally! our retreat pics!!
our first morning - with our morning glories.
hey!! who turn on the lights?! grrr..
oh yum!! cereals with milk! i love~~
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and after the mornings bible session..
thanksgivings to our prayer ICs!!
toothbrush holders to remind you to always brush your teeth before praying.
she ran off to catch up on her sleep.
and because we learn to love cause Christ first loved us.
we showed it by joining her!!
at the playground!
ok guys..lets head back for our next session! awww
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dinner time at a nearby zhi cah stall..
is that all??
the three smackers
the Thorns'n'Roses
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
warrior or worrier?
i have been much more of a worrier recently.
i worry so much its causing me to feel so sick.
causing me to dislike life once again when its suppose to be purposeful,
as i keep dwellin within my problems.
So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries.
Today's trouble is enough for today.
所 以 ， 不 要 为 明 天 忧 虑 ， 因 为 明 天 自 有 明 天 的 忧 虑 ； 一 天 的 难 处 一 天 当 就 够 了。
Matthew 6:34 NLT
馬 太 福 音 6:34 CUV
lord..help me to keep my eyes on you and not worry anymore about issues which are trival in Your sight.
You have help me to get thru so far till now, teach me to totally lean and trust in You.
even though its so sooooo hard..
please help me to remember constantly that You are indeed always in control.
take me under Your wings now Lord.
O Lord, you alone are my hope. I've trusted you, O Lord, from childhood.
主 ─ 耶 和 华 啊 ， 你 是 我 所 盼 望 的 ； 从 我 年 幼 ， 你 是 我 所 倚 靠 的 。
Psalm 71:5 NLT
詩 篇 71 CUV
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
have you ever taken someone you really loved for granted?
someone that you know you hurt so very badly?
and eventually lost that very person?
you never talk since that particular day but you wish you can make up for what you had done so badly.
but you never got to see that person again.
it's as though he just vanished from earth.
and you still move on with your own life.
i finally saw him today from far.
how i wish i dared reach out but den again, i know its not possible cause he might not even wana look at me.
and i do not have the courage to go forth.
i did a really terrible thing but though i know i am forgiven by God when i finally acknowlege my sin, i still want to know if i am forgiven by him.
its been almost 3 years but whenever i think of this,
it weighs me down like tons of stones - stones of shame and guilt.
the deep sense of regret.
a wound that reopen and never seem to healed, though it did when i prayed for mercy.
this is how i feel when i think and take away my broken toy i gave to God for repair.
i have to always pray for God to take it away from me again before i feel that inner peace.
somehow, i always hope one day i can finally make this right and tell him how i feel all this time.
that i have changed and is no longer the same as the past.
but who knows..it is highly possible that things might have been done in His way already that i could not see.
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
got this flash from a friend
its so cool yet cute at the same time.
about the DaVinci Code..in a typical singaporean way la.
by the way its one of my most favourite book!
anyway this link's really good for those who have read the book or watched the movie BUT not yet know and believe The Truth!
ok la..now lets enjoy the clip hor..
http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
weeeeee..i'm BACK! from outer space..lalala.
neh..from retreat rather.
and it was pretty fun..and relaxing.
worship, bible studies, eat-outs and slacky entertainment.
its so nice to be in a huge room with friends you like with you.
sharing beds+rooms. playing. watchin horrors+comedies, laughing, screaming and hiding behind pillows like a family is one of the coolest and heart warming thing we can ever have.
it was even better when we have to struggle to concentrate together during bible study bcos next door was singing Hokkien oldies the entire 2 nights.
imagine pasa malam as your immediate neighbour.
it was quite a torture but we pulled thru by combating with worship songs!muhahahahhaaa..
draggin ourselves to go for church service was another torture for me cos we have to wake by 6.45am!! ARGH!!
i slept again on the mrt from Pasir Ris to Commonwealth.
the whole world noes i am not a morning person.
but i still love retreats. hehehe..
but besides the fun..we learnt many things on how to listen to God, talk to God and listen for God - which! is the main purpose for this retreat. yea!!
i cant wait for the pics to be emailed to us so that i can upload some of our activities.
hope i look good!! hahahhaa..the nerdy side of me yet again.
jy, i seriously think that IF we are really gona take up that ic thingy.
we should organise a lazer challenge, paint version and propose our next retreat on a cruise!!
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
ok..i called Cody.
guess what he said!
"you have to gimmi some time! about 2 to 3 weeks before you can have the results!"
alright.
Y.Y.M.Y. ..bad girl making a bad name. hmm..
i feel so caught in the middle between them.
and i do have a waiting agony after all.
looks like i have to continue holdin on to
Romans 12-12 TIGhtly.
Be glad for all God is planning for you. Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful.
patience..OOOommm
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
jus returned from the interview at LaSalle-SIA.
and she said tomorrow i can call for the results!! yippie!!
no long-waiting-in-agony-torture.
things dun look too good though and feeling kinda sian, but i can still manage.
i had to wait for an hour half +++ jus to be interviewed.
there was another lady that came after me also to be interviewed.
we had to display our work together and she had a file full of her works!!*narrow-eyed*
the lecturer was apparently upset with me because i brought only 10 pieces.
but the 'Cody' at the admin side told me to jus bring 10!!!
so it appears as though i was lying. I DID NOT!!
sigh.
nevermind..God knows. and the website did say so too!!
i must have offended 'Cody' perviously somewhere someway somehow.
i duno how he looks like though.
first..he did not tell me who to look for, he only said to look for him.
so i ended there lookin for 'Cody'. wrong person!!
HE!! is from the admin..i am suppose to look for Suhan.
and then..he told me to bring only 10 pieces!! when i can actually bring all my works to show off my talent.
and tml i am suppose to call C O D Y for my application results.
grrrrr..*breathe*
he must be a NICE guy.
all things happen for a purpose. lets guess what.
anyway Suhan didn't seem to think my 10 pieces is enuff to satisfy her or meet her standards.
but its over anyway..jus have to wait for the results which is in God's hands i believe.
He is the one who holds the control over all things.
the verse of the day from Air1 hit me just as i turn its station on, on my pc.
it answers the doubt within me.
Be glad for all God is planning for you. Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful.
Romans 12-12 NLT
alil faith in God can do wonders.
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
i did not tell my mom my interest in working with kids.
i did not tell my mom how difficult it is for me go into a teaching course bcos i have no 'O' nor 'A' Levels.
i did not tell her about The Dream i had.
and i did not tell her that i was kana gona give up going towards that.
all she knew was i volunteered into the Children's Ministry in our church,
and i seem to be hopping around senselessly this days.
and that i did tell her i might go into teaching some time ago.
and that i quitted my job!!
i was thinking i will jus continue studyin, gettin a degree in Interior Design.
and a year later, work..
meanwhile taking private 'O's and then finally when the time is right, try teaching again.
since i cant do it now..
by then, i might have alrdy lost the motivation.
it is too much of a coincidence when she passed me a newspaper cutting.
she has never tried to "inject" ideas of what she want me to be.
from 'N' levels to Poly,
she has always left me to decide what my career will be.
amazingly, God seem to have worked thru her and prompt her to show me the cutting.
and asked me to look at this school that offers child psychology.
the text that attract me was in red,
"for Fresh 'O' and 'N' Level Graduates"
s p e e c h l e s s, i was.
i laughed.
"mummy, why did u pass me this?"
"duno..i happen to see this and i thought of passing to you." XD~
i called to enquire and he said, because i have a Diploma.
as long as i passed my 'N' levels english i can apply!
i was like "are you sure" that kind of feeling~
but..cool!! not bad..
to be honest, ive never look at this option before.
psychology? was something that i find interesting but thought i can never make it.
*shrug*
he has invited me to go down to tell me more about the course and to check out a class.
i don't wana count the chickens before they hatch.
and i do not have the money anyway..
but i thought i can jus drop by to have a look.
im sooooooo free anyway.
so why not?? its harmless! hee!
i might be amazed by His works yet again.
thanks guys for praying so much for His direction for me.
i hope i continue to have a sensitivity to listen =)
and mayb he can path a way for $$ to come in?
hahahhaaa..
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
arrrrrrgh!!
its all too fast!
i jus sent my application yesterday!
and this morning..i woke up..
still in dreamy wonderland..
lasalle called to say that they wana interview me nx wed!!
when he told me 'lasalle'..i was like..'huh?wat lasalle?'
thank goodness i did not say it out.
hehehehe..
arrrrggh!!!!!
i still duno which 10 pieces to choose!!
ok..right now i have a headache.
over anxious..
*breathe!!*
i have exactly 1 full week to work on it before going.
i feel lika ant in a frying pan.
arrrrrrgh!
i wana get iiiiiiiiiiiinn!!
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
Monday, May 08, 2006
ok..right now my "low" mood is on the..high?
i jus do not feel like meeting anyone.
jus wana be alone, hidin at home.
but generally im ok..ya?
im jus..in solitude =) ya..
taking real small steps at a time.
i had jus submitted an application to LaSalle for a 1-year Interior Design degree course.
hmm..i have to wait for them to call me for an interview to present my qualification papers as well as 10 pieces of my work.
hmm..10 pieces..i duno which to choose from my previous works or how to come up with new ones that will be to their liking or..you noe~ impress them.
now that im no longer working, i can focus my time on my creativity yet again.
jus pray i haven lost touch by all the drafting this one year.
its obvious i did not plan well.
i did not look at the other opportunities when i applied for NUS,
cos i jus blindly thought its by default i should jus apply t h e r e.
so silly. so dumb.
m i s t a k e s .
else i wouldn have missed the chance of applyin into NAFA.
but anyway..
i hope that my application to LaSalle is a favourable one.hmm!
i jus wana get a degree and do designing works!!
no more drafting!!
jus hope i can fulfill this one dream before going into anything else.
but if i really cant get in..
den i jus have to find another job, this time in an interior firm so that it can help polish me up and den i'll see if i can apply for degree again nx year.
won't look for any drafting works anymore.
i had enuff.hee..
pleeeeeeease!! lalalasalle...lemme get iiiiiiiiiinn!!~
painting a picture is easy,
making it real is a challenge.
i hope i am not jus painting a beautiful picture.
xoxoxo
it is not what i become.
but what He has done.
PROFILE.
.RUN.IT.